“I’m a bad mum,” Tracey told me as I went to jump into bed tonight.
I may have rolled my eyes. Tracey spends almost every waking minute doing stuff for our kids.
“No, you’re not,” I assured her.
“I am. Look.”
She held up a diary of some sort. It was open at a page which she’d clearly written stuff on.
“What is it?” I asked.
“It’s Emily’s baby book,” she told me.
You know what? If Tracey’s a bad mother then I’m a shocking dad, because I didn’t even know Miss1 had a baby book.
“It’s huge!” I said to Tracey and turned the light off. “Goodnight.”
Three seconds later the light was back on.
“It’s not huge. It’s nearly empty.” She handed me the book and I flicked through it. “Don’t bother. The page I’ve opened it on is the only page I’ve written anything on. Do you know how many pages Grace has?”
As confession seemed to be a bit of a theme tonight I stuck with the topic and confessed I didn’t. I could have confessed more, like I don’t know what she’s written in it or where the book is kept, but I thought I’d let her set the pace for this conversation.
“She has one and a half books!”
This is a common enough problem, isn’t it? The first baby comes along and everything they do it amazing. As part of her confession Tracey told me how most of the entries in Miss9’s baby books start with the phrase “Oh My God! She’s so clever! She’s just ….” with rolled over, taken a step, tripped over her own feet, burped her name added to the end of the sentence.
“You know what the worst thing is?” Tracey asked me.
Like many of the conversations which go on in this house, I had no idea. I asked her what the worst thing was.
“I wrote this one entry when I was pregnant: Before she was even born!”
“It’s okay,” I told her. “She’s not missing out.” And fortunately, for once, I had the answer to the problem. “When she’s older she’ll have my blog to look back on. It’s all in there. She won’t feel left out at all. None of them will.”
In fact, they’ll probably wish I hadn’t been quite so prolific.
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